In the Silence of My Mind

Is my mind ever silent? Well, no. I recently went to a Tots and Mom yoga class that began with an introduction to meditation. Sure, it was a nice relaxing 15 minutes, even while my 1 year old climbed on/around/over me, but in reality, this doesn't happen at home. I don't sit crossed legged on my living room floor meditating while the kid is banging and throwing her toys on the coffee table behind me. Nor do I rarely use her nap time to catch up on "me" time, at least not "me" time in the former-before-the-kid-arrived, sense of the word. When I'm not finishing up on my last few hours of work, getting the house straightened, planning/prepping dinner, exercising, getting ready or dealing with every day shit that comes up and I can't ignore, I read through your blogs or update my Anthro shopping cart. That has now become my new "me" time.

My tolerance for B. S. has significantly lowered. I used to be able to handle all kinds of crap without it getting to me. Now, I just can't do it. I don't have time to deal with petty issues of the past. I don't have time for people that say one thing and do another. I don't have time for empty promises. I don't have time for stroking people's egos. I don't have time for indecisiveness (except for my own, of course!), I don't have time for niceties and small talk when I'm not in the mood to talk at all. Sometimes I just want to curl up on the couch with a warm latte and watch some mind sucking television shows (any reality tv show on Bravo will do) and turn off my brain. To stopping worrying about what needs to be done around the house. Stop chasing the kid around and wondering which of these days is going to be the one that she falls head first into the corner of the table (we put safety corners on, but she peeled them off and wouldn't leave them alone). Stop worrying that I'm not paying enough attention to my husband, kid and family.

Today is one of those days. I'm tired, I feel worn out and it's only Tuesday. I'm going to lunch with a girlfriend and Mom is coming to get the kid. I couldn't be more relieved. After lunch I think I'll get a latte and treat myself to a peti/mani.

I'm already looking forward to the massage chairs and pretty red toes.

To Toile or Not to Toile

Anthropologie has done it again. They've made me obsessed with items I really don't need, but am truly convinced that I do. My latest obsession are these lovelies The Toile Landscape Wedges.

To try and convince myself that they are NOT needed, I headed over to Polyvore to put together some sets that included the shoes. I was originally thinking I wouldn't find much that I liked with them. Unfortunately, I was so wrong! I found a few different combos that I thought would be super cute and included items I already have (or are similar to items already in my closet) and I could have kept going! So what is a girl to do? They're a little pricey for a canvas wedge, but then again, they look comfortable and not too high, which I find more and more necessary while toting around a 1 year old and all of the baggage that goes with her!

They're currently on backorder until March 22nd, but If I order now and ask for overnight, I envision myself with a similar outfit (shown below) while in Vegas on the 26th cheering on my hubby as he competes in a half Ironman. All I'd be missing is a big floppy hat..

What do you think? Worth the $128.00?

Polka Dots and Toile by Peacockmeg featuring skinny jeans

My New Bling

No, I didn't get any new jewelry (well, I did actually order two pairs of earrings that were in my shopping cart and happened to show up in yesterday's Anthro sale), but that is not the bling in which I'm referring. Yesterday I got braces. Brace Face, Metal Mouth, Tinsel Teeth. That is ME. I've always been accused of being younger than I am, which is a good thing now that I am reaching my mid-30's, but now I feel like I look 14...that is until I squint or smile and you see my crow's feet. I really thought I had escaped these in my adolescence, but much to my surprise, I was wrong.

No, I'm not in any pain, they are just annoying and giving my jaw/gums an annoying light-dull ache. I want to rip them off, much like you want to rip off constricting pantyhose or tights at the end of a long day. I want to eat an apple and popcorn and rolled tacos (yes, I would even eat it all at one sitting if I could), but I had an issue eating sushi last night, so I think those items are out. I'll have these darn things on for about 2 years, but the Doc said if I'm a good little patient, it could take less time (fingers crossed). 729 days to go......... but who's counting?

Everything feels different: kissing my husband, putting on lipstick/gloss, brushing and flossing my teeth, eating (obviously) and smiling (and getting my top lip caught on the hook so I look like snaggle tooth). I know, teenagers across America have gotten used to these things, so I know I will too.... I just hope it's soon.

Yesterday's OOTD wasn't too exciting b/c I wanted to be comfortable.

Shirt: Anthropologie Soft Spectra Top (now on sale)

Jeans: 7 for All Mankind Dojos

Bracelet: Anthropologie Mountain Avens Cuff

Earrings: Anthropologie - gifted Christmas 2009